A Random Thoughts of Mommy-hood

As I face my computer these days, there are countless dedications, thanksgiving, and messages of love around the internet. And I didn’t even noticed that Mother’s Day is just around the corner. I was so busy circling around the house and doing tons and tons of chores that doesn’t seem to end. Oh this is just a Mother’s life. But I love every second of it!

Though it might sound a bit late, which I guess not because it is still May and it still not to late to share to you my random thoughts about “Mommy-hood”.

Reality Check

Being a mother is something that hasn’t been in my wildest imagination. I don’t know. I have no single idea on the Standard Operating Procedures of the said “profession”. All I have is the urge on chasing that one big dream, and a simple life being a single lady.

But not until I met my ex-boyfriend (now my Husband)!

Big Decision

From a single lady with a very monochromatic life, to a lady with a rainbow above her head – that’s what happened to me when I met the love of my life. It was so overwhelming that I always felt butterflies inside my stomach. Maybe that’s what love got to do with it..got to do with it.. All I ever wanted is to be happy with the only man of my dreams.


The perfect match – After we graduated on 2009, we immediately decided to be together as ONE.

Two years have passed and we were at the peak of our relationship. We really wanted to be with each other in the soonest possible time. I had no speck of doubt in my heart and that moment I realized that the One Big Dream I have been chasing is this – to build a happy family with him. A year after we both graduated on the same year 2009, we have decided to hurry things up. I was two months pregnant when we got married and I’ll say that I was on a high. It feels like cloud nine. From then on I promised to be the best better half that he could ever had. But I realized that marriage doesn’t end up only being the husband and wife. Because sooner or later our world will be filled with blessings and responsibility as we wait for the coming of our first child.

A Soon To Be Mommy

The gender of the child inside me was still unidentified after I have made my 1st ultrasound in the second trimester of my pregnancy. And we have decided not to know the gender anymore because we want to surprise ourselves. So I prepared two names, one for a girl and one for a boy. I also prepared unisex-colored baby stuff such as white wardrobes and bedding so that it would match the baby’s gender, no matter what it would be. On the other hand, my doctor said that I will be giving birth around 3rd week of August 2010 (according to my records) but to my surprise, I ended up waiting for more than 1 week. I was full of excitement, and of course I was also running out of patience. Why not? The pain was unbearable. I can no longer sleep well. I feel so terribly heavy.

Labor Day

I was already September and I have not yet giving birth. I almost wrote a letter to my baby asking when he/she will come out. I wonder what he/she replied? Then one night (it’s actually past 12 midnight) my husband came home drunk, after a stressful asphalt-pouring things he manages as an Engineer at the Valenzuela City Hall. I was mad at him and not talked to him the whole time. The next morning, 6am, September4, Saturday, I felt stomach pain. I immediately called my doctor and she set an appointment at 9am. Lucky for me the hospital was a few walks away from my mother’s house where we stayed for a couple of months. The doctor said I was already 4cm and anytime soon I can be admitted, but we went back home and we waited there. It was 3pm and I can no longer stand the pain that occurred every 2 minutes. I was admitted at Pres. Diosdado Macapagal Memorial Medical Center (now Caloocan Medical Center) and there I bear the most painful part of childbirth – the labor.

The place where I gave birth.

The place where I gave birth.

At 7:41pm, I gave birth to a 7lbs baby…GIRL! I was so groggy and sleepy. I didn’t know what happened next. All I can remember was at the time the baby came out, that was the MOST WONDERFUL FEELING EVER! All of the hardships, the heaviness, the stress, and the pain were all vanished in just a blink of an eye. I just wanted to see the fruit of my me and my husband’s love.

Certified Mother

Oh yes! I  am a mother. As I was moved into the ward room, my mother gave me my first born angel. She was so peaceful and long…literally long, just like her father who was so blessed with heights. Although I didn’t have the chance to carry her in my arms because of dizziness, I still managed to breastfeed her for the first time. I looked at my husband and he’s just staring at her baby girl, and I thought, “Gee, I am the happiest human alive!” That moment made me realized that the story of us as a family had just begun. Our baby is named Rhienne Lindsay.

First glance of our daughter

First glance of our daughter

Those Happiest Times Ever

Here’s a collection of selected family memories of us.

Enjoying the first months of being a family.

Enjoying the first months of being a family.

Celebrating our daughter's Poohriffic 1st birthday

Celebrating our daughter’s Poohriffic 1st birthday

Our 2nd Wedding Anniversary at the Manila Ocean Park

Our 2nd Wedding Anniversary at the Manila Ocean Park

Welcoming 2013

Welcoming 2013

Taken at our nephew's birthday

Taken at our nephew’s birthday

Taken during the wedding of our cousin. Our baby is one of the flower girls.

Taken during the wedding of our cousin. Our baby is one of the flower girls.

A perfect happy family portrait

A perfect happy family portrait

Our summer 2014

Our summer 2014

A Mother’s Joy

They say that one of the ultimate joys of being a mother is to witness her child’s development. To see her offspring’s little achievements through the years, from the time it first opened it’s eyes to the world. For me it is true, and I have seen them all. From the time she breastfed to me, to her first sit, first stand, first tooth, first baby food, first walk; when she was welcomed to Christianity, to her 1st, 2nd and 3rd birthday, and now as we enter to another journey of her life, as a student, I’ll promise to be on her side all the time.



And lastly, my deepest gratitude to the Lord Almighty for giving this wonderful family that I will be sharing my whole life and love with for the rest of my life.

Cheers to all the Mother’s in the world!




Bitter-Sweet Us!

Bitter-Sweet Us!

When I saw those cute Valentine stick figures on Google, I immediately make a new Timeline Cover for my Facebook through http://www.picmonkey.com/ and the aftermath is soooooo lovely!!! I am so proud of my self!! ahahaha… Well, the Season of Love is coming soon. Hope we can find love this season, although I know that L-O-V-E already lies deep within our hearts, through God.

Happy morning everyone!

God is Our Refuge and Strength

It is already December and everyone is getting ready for the merriest season of the year. It is the time when we start to decorate our homes with colorful garlands, jingle bells, sparkling ornaments, and we decorate the Christmas Tree with our children. It is the time when we start to hear Christmas songs that we longed to hear.  It is the time when people are getting busy to shop for what to prepare for the festivity and also for the gifts that they will give for their loved ones. This is the season of giving and sharing. This is the season of love and hope.

But not all people share the same procedures during this coming Holidays.

Unfortunately, the Central and Southern part of the Philippines are being tested by fate lately. A super typhoon named “Pablo” (international codename, Bopha) just hit the said region and the aftermath is of course, a large percentage of casualties. Although the government  did not fail to warn the people and to prepare for the said typhoon, still there are those incidents that are far beyond expectations.

Residents try to cross the flooded Macanhan road in Barangay Carmen leading towards Barangay Balulang as flood waters caused by Typhoon “Pablo” blocked the main road as the Cagayan de Oro River overflowed on Tuesday afternoon. CONTRIBUTED PHOTO/BOBBY LAGSA

As I watch news every night, I feel the thrill by seeing the damage that Typhoon Pablo just left the Philippine region. Many bridges has been broken, flash floods are everywhere. Trees from the mountains has been washed down that led to landslides. Hundreds of acres of agriculture are now in deep flood and can never be used anymore. Thousands of homes are torn down, and to make matters worst, many lives are gone. Men, women, children even babies, elders, and soldiers are buried alive because of the landslides. Some of them are missing because of the flash floods.

Read news http://www.abs-cbnnews.com/nation/regions/12/05/12/238-dead-hundreds-missing-due-pablo

‘I’M HUNGRY’ A Red Cross volunteer comforts Imee Sayson after she was rescued from muddy waters where she had been submerged for almost 24 hours in New Bataan, Compostela Valley. Her father and brother are still missing. DENNIS JAY SANTOS/INQUIRER MINDANAO

Seeing those picture through the news is really dreadful and frightening. It seems that the nature is extremely angry that people has to pay with their own lives. I am a mother and a wife, and to witness those mothers who are crazily crying over their dead child or husband is also a pain for me. I don’t want that tragedy to happen to my family, and one way to help them is through prayers.

According to Psalm 46 of  The Holy Bible: New International Version:

     ” God is our refuge and strength, an ever-present help in trouble. Therefore we will not fear, though the earth give way and the mountains fall into the heart of the sea. Though its waters roar and foam and the mountains quake with their surging…The Lord Almighty is within us.”

FAITH OUT OF THE MUD A girl retrieves a statue of the Sto. Niño and cleans it of mud and grime after landslides hit her home due to nonstop rains brought by Typhoon “Pablo” in Compostela town, Compostela Valley province, in Mindanao on Tuesday. AFP

 In this times of troubles, I believe, we just have to put our greatest faith in God. Even though our hearts might be torn and we may feel that there is no hope, I know somehow there will be a light in the midst of the darkness. We have face life’s biggest challenges arm in arm. This is only a test of God, and I know that He will never leave us alone.

The spirit of Christmas should not just happen only every December. We can always share our blessings every time of the year to those who need a helping hand. Gifts are not just come in a pretty gift wrap with a ribbon, but a gift of prayer is one of the most treasured and priceless things we could give.

Please do pray for the victims of  Typhoon Pablo.


Photos are from http://newsinfo.inquirer.net/



Copyright © Daydreams of a Wanderer

One and Only

On our clock, it’s 4:00 am.

Taken at the Manila Ocean Park during our 2nd Wedding Anniversary

Taken at the Manila Ocean Park during our 2nd Wedding Anniversary

I woke up this early just to find out that I am MORE in love with the man I am sleeping with for the rest of my life. And that feeling told me to get up and tell the world of our love.

One of my most treasured quotes about love is that of Blaise Pascal: “The heart has its reasons which reason knows nothing of… We know the truth not only by the reason, but by the heart.” I thought that is the most accurate and most sensible definition of what love is. When God created the world, He did it with LOVE and his reason is LOVE. We just feel it and no words can ever describe the REAL FEELING behind it. That is pure love – and it’s a mysterious thing.

I loved Rainier because I love him. How did I fell for him was still a question which I thought God only knows. I do not know how to explain it by words and when I try to, it seems that no words come out. I thought that it was stuck in the bottom of my heart and that explains everything.

Not so long ago, when I was in college and SINGLE, I used to write “everything my heart desires” everyday. I wrote essays, poems, short stories, etc., almost everyday and every night. It seems that I have a full load of ideas that is waiting to be written. I was so damn busy with my pen and paper.

Not until one day. The day I fell in love with the man that I will be sharing my life to forever. And beginning that day, I found out that I can no longer think of something to write. Because the only word that my mind and heart has, was LOVE.

When I met Rainier, I was not actually attracted to him at first. For me he was just another neighbor like our other neighbors who tried their luck to hang out with me. I was so snobbish and shy. I don’t talk with other guys except for my male cousins which I always hang out with. Every guy in our place knew it, but not this new neighbor. Rainier started fetching me at the university in which I was so shocked and overwhelmed because that was the very first time, in my entire life, that there was someone, who came out of nowhere, fetching me at school, bringing me home and started courting me.

The “Trial of the Year” only lasted for a month, and came September 30, 2007, I had my first (and fortunately my last) boyfriend.

Falling in love was never a piece of cake for me. I had so many questions in mind, plus the doubts and the fear of being hurt someday by a guy. But to my own realization, how can I be sure if I won’t try? Being in love is a wonderful state in life, and there is no way for me stop it.

Adrenaline Rush. How I love to had adrenaline rush  whenever I am with him. I was so in cloud nine and beatifically happy with him. I feel the butterflies inside my stomach, and I can’t help my self from falling in love with him. That deep feeling brought us to what we are now.

Welcoming our dear child to the World of our Christ, November 14, 2010

We are happily married for 2 years, (come January 2013 will be our 3rd), and we are a very proud parent to our dear daughter, Lindsay. In each passing days, I am grateful for what God has given me. Each passing day, I fell more and more in love with Rainier. I am filled with so much love and I want to be like this until the end of my life. I want to be inspired forever, to be happy forever. Being in love with this two great people is truly a joy of  a woman. I am so blessed to wake up, having them on my side, ever moment of my life.

I am completely COMPLETE.


P. S.

Here is a collection of some great thoughts about Love.

” There is no surprise more magical than the surprise of being loved.  It is God’s finger on man’s shoulder.”  – Charles Morgan

” Love is the only sane and satisfactory answer to the problem of human existence.” – Eric Fromm

” Love has no desire but to fulfill itself.  To melt and be like a running brook that sings its melody to the night.  To wake at dawn with a winged heart and give thanks for another day of loving.” – Kahlil Gibran

” Only in love are unity and duality not in conflict.”  – Rabindranath Tagore

“A loving heart is the truest wisdom.” – Charles Dickens


” Love is that condition in which the happiness of another person is essential to your own.” – Robert A. Heinlein

” Love is like the wind, you can’t see it but you can feel it.” – Nicholas Sparks 


Stay in Love!!!